You belong in a boat out as sea
You belong with your love on your arm
You belong somewhere you feel free” —Tom Petty
These past few weeks have given me some time to think about well, everything. From school, to music, life to love and my mind can’t stop reeling. There was a bit of time where I was so consumed with work that life literally left me. I was so exhausted that I was unable to find the energy to be inspired, or simply to love the things I love the most. I have a tendency of being cynical and sarcastic, I’ll be the first to admit that. While that is a part of my personality, under stress, I let it become the only part of my personality. It is very difficult to be around someone who is overly sarcastic and cynical. Its even harder as that person to love others and being open to all the things life has to offer. I’ve spent the last few months with my blinders on, focused on the goals ahead, I’ve been so focused I’ve forgotten to do the one thing that is like breathing to me, music. I’ve forgotten to do the one thing that makes me feel like I’m home. I’ve forgotten about what makes me happy and the things I desire, the people I love, the quiet, and peace I can find within myself. I decided to make a list of the things I desire most in life and to chase after them. First on my list is, I desire to be inspired and to inspire. As of late, new (good) music and films inspire me. Others fulfilling human stories and emotion through art, inspires me. The fact that those of us who are unable to effectively express ourselves in the normal format in which humans should express their thoughts and emotions can do so through art, is well… inspiring. Experiencing other’s art reminds me to remain open and available to the things in the world that will allow me to create and to find the things I desire the most.
What do you desire and are you chasing after it?